When you get the clutter out of your home, you will not have to struggle with the guilt of a messy house

     This thought is genious, and makes keeping the house straight practically effortless. I have struggled with piles of crap building up everywhere and a lack of organization, and have finally found a tool I can use to help me with that, and maybe you too!! She has made lists and lists of things that should be accomplished throughout the day, but in small spurts, and encourages breaks!!! WOW is this the way I need it to be lmao. Breaks are great, but the "breaks" are most useful to change the activity for the little hawk who's circling my clean floor (with freshly made chocolate covered strawberries in hand unfortanately!). LOL... It started with small steps each day adding something easy to do.. 1 is shine your sink.. really? thats it? DONE! and ill say, my kitchen looks twice as clean all the time by simply drying my sink after use. I'm not losing my mind I know I can not prevent messes. It's gunna happen, I'm gunna clean it, and that's how it's gunna be...thank God for FLYlady, at least I can now look at this as effortless(endless cleaning)! Go check her site out, www.Flylady.net!
   I made fudge last evening, the chocoholic of the group LOVED this activity and has been downing it be the spoonful!! Needless to say this is a once a year activity, and all I can do is hope she doesn't get chocolate fever...or a tummy ache from the stuff! I added too much marshmallow cream and it is more like icecream fudge than, hard, typical fudge...oops, still SUPER yummy and easy for strawberry dipping!!
    I've had to back out of playdates lately and I miss everyone of Lilys usual playgroupers and moms!!!!! Every single place that we go in the car she repeats her little friends names over and over hoping that will convince me to take her to them, its heartbreaking! Things just keep coming up and we havent made it to any in the last few days :o( I did however get Lily all up to date with the doc until next fall!!! We were in the room and Lily heard children being picked off one by one, and suddenly a new kid would start shrieking for dear life every minute or so. It was horrible. She had NO idea what was coming but could feel that it was going to be bad. She is getting to be too smart for me! She was also looking throughout the office for her friend that she looks for while we're in the car, it is true separation anxiety! I think she thought maybe the friend would come around the corner to save her lmao! So here's the stats for 2 yrs old:: 27lbs-(60th%)::34.5in. tall (75th%)To me doctors visits are a big deal.. I feel like the doctor is the only true "judge" of how I'm doing as a parent..and visits to him are like end of year finals... you know you're going to pass, you just don't know if you're going to get a curveball or exactly how well you'll do, just nervous! Luckily this "final" is a clear and obvious pass or fail... well to fail would be a tragic horrible fail... and yes well, clearly we passed with flying colors! lol. i just hate doctors. the end.
   I made a meatloaf today that was mushy like sloppy joes...that right there is a classic example of a tragic horrible fail...lol my husband ate a lone plate of instant mashed potatoes for dinner and skipped the slop!
Night girls!

stop whining and count your blessings

    Today there was a HUGE fire 10 miles from my house, and 2 from a dear friend's. I have to be honest, it lit the fear of god in me. To see a massive black cloud, bellowing from the groud, imagining the houses being devastated at it's base. Fortunately, the fire was a "wildfire" within a large park, in the city limits. These wildfires have been starting all around in the neighboring counties, and yes I've considered all of this before, but it becomes extremely real when it is all happening right in front of your eyes. So, tomorrow I will be going to the dollar store and buying hygiene items, and taking them to my local dropspot... and you should maybe consider taking a load yourself :o) 
    Also today, we hosted a playdate at our house! We did sliced fruit stamps, and it was a big hit with Lily! She has now been begging for apples all night. Daddy didnt understand why when she requested her apple, her true intention, and was dearly confused as to why she continued grunting after given the apple. Too funny to watch. I love them so much and am very lucky that I get to stay home every day and do these activities with her. 
    These are the blessings I speak of. My house has not been threatened, I live pretty comfortably (except the days that I've maxed out my credit card and carry quarters around and my friends sport my mcdonalds habbit lol thanks friends) my family is healthy and SO happy, and we have amazing friends and family who love and support us. So EVEN on a day when I've been on two playdates, cleaned house, and then make dinner while I shake a 2 year old off my leg, I really have NO reason to so frustrated with my husband.  There is no real situation besides my aching feet, and I need to appreciate all that he is doing behind the scenes to make it all possible. I watched my mom work SO hard her whole life, and I almost feel guilty for not having to work the long hours and tend to a child. She worked two jobs up to the day she had her heat attack. I was taught better. I will strive for better, and to be more like her. No more whining and complaining about getting on my hands and knees to scrub the spots out of the carpet, because that is MY job. It's not glamorous, but it is important, and it's mine!
    On a lighter note, Lily is saying new words EVERYDAY!!!! I need some new vocabulary building exercised for my lovechild if anyone has any good ones! We've been doing flashcards and she can now say all 90 plus other randoms! This is a huge improvement over just a month ago! The cutest of her new words were "pretty" which is a word every girl needs... and "football" which she learned from her uncle. Her uncle comes over every weekend and asks her daddy to "play football" and now every weekend she gets a new lesson in football from uncle dan. It is so cute to watch, and she LOVES every second of it! My girl is one tough cookie, just like her momma!